I know I must look like a walking contradiction. I've got 12 tattoos, yet I'm rarely not wearing a skirt. I'm trying to let my hair grow even though it frustrates me beyond belief. It's an investigation to see just how far I am willing to go to honor the Word of the Lord.
I written before about being a Proverbs 31 woman. I know there are tons of blogs, articles, essays, and books about that particular set of verses. Here's why: they speak the truth. They give an example of how a Godly woman should live. Even if you take the religion aspect out of it, they are guidelines that lead to feeling successful as a woman, wife, and mother.
I know that it seems silly that I a single, childless woman would speak on what it means to be a wife and mother. I do not have experience as either one. I do, however, have several old school grandmothers who told me since I was young that I should pray for my future husband and children. God has also been placing many amazing Godly mothers into my life so that I may learn from their experience.
I say all that to say, I know there are a few of people in my life who are questioning why I am doing the things I'm doing. A couple have said that they think that I am taking things a little too far. It caused me to stop and think about it. (I believe that if more that one person tells you something, you should investigate it. It may not be true, but it warrants a little discussion.)
My conclusion was that I was not. I do think I need to check myself and make sure I'm not dressing too old. I do think I need to not take myself too seriously. Honestly, I'm not the girl I was when I was nineteen years old. I've grown and changed over the past five years.
Some things haven't changed.
I still love tattoos. Even though I don't go and get one every six months anymore.
I still dye my hair. Even though it's not every other month anymore.
At my core, I still have a love-hate relationship with change. I still like to change things that I can control when I feel like there are too many changes happening that I cannot control. The difference is that I am a lot more confidant in who I am as a woman and who I am in my relationship with God. I don't feel the need to do things like I used to because I am not as anxious as I used to be. I know the changes I experience now are for my good or ultimately will be worked out so that they are.
Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation. The old has passed away; behold the new has come. (2 Corinthians 5:17, ESV)