Skip to main content

Faking It or Making It...

Fake it 'til you make it.

We've all heard this thousands of times. The idea is that you act the way you want to be perceived or the way you want to feel until you achieve it. 

I don't believe it. Let me tell you why.

For a long time I struggled with a big issue. My mask. You know, the mask I put on when I was in front of people, but really I was completely different underneath. 

I thought that if I could convince the world that I was ok, then I could convince myself. 

I was wrong.

His speech was smooth as butter, yet war was in his heart; his words were softer than oil, yet they were drawn swords. (Psalm 55:21 ESV)

This was me. I had war in my heart. I fought against everything inside of me. The things I said were sweet, but they came from a hurting place.

“And when you pray, you must not be like the hypocrites. For they love to stand and pray in the synagogues and at the street corners, that they may be seen by others. Truly, I say to you, they have received their reward. (Matthew 6:5 ESV)

Because I was wearing a mask, I was still attending church. I would go to the alter and "pour my heart out." I would put on a  show and I would receive nothing.

So I ran. 

I ran from the God who loved me because I thought He hated me. I ran from every good thing because I thought I didn't deserve it. 

I ran toward destruction because I knew there was never going to be any way I could live up to the expectations that I felt Christ had for me. 

In some sense, I was right.

The thing about the enemy is, he gives you just enough truth that you believe the lie.

The truth is: I never could do it on my own. There is nothing I could ever do to deserve what Jesus did for me.

The whole truth is: God never asked me to do it alone. No one deserves what Christ did for them.

Brothers, if anyone is caught in any transgression, you who are spiritual should restore him in a spirit of gentleness. Keep watch on yourself, lest you too be tempted. Bear one another’s burdens, and so fulfill the law of Christ. (Galatians 6:1, 2 ESV)

He has given me brothers and sisters to help me bear my load. 

But the Helper, the Holy Spirit, whom the Father will send in my name, he will teach you all things and bring to your remembrance all that I have said to you. Peace I leave with you; my peace I give to you. Not as the world gives do I give to you. Let not your hearts be troubled, neither let them be afraid. (John 14:26, 27 ESV)

He has given me the Holy Spirit to guide me.

Fear not, for I am with you; be not dismayed, for I am your God; I will strengthen you, I will help you, I will uphold you with my righteous right hand. (Isaiah 41:10 ESV)

Ultimately, He has my back.

For while we were still weak, at the right time Christ died for the ungodly. For one will scarcely die for a righteous person—though perhaps for a good person one would dare even to die— but God shows his love for us in that while we were still sinners, Christ died for us. Since, therefore, we have now been justified by his blood, much more shall we be saved by him from the wrath of God. For if while we were enemies we were reconciled to God by the death of his Son, much more, now that we are reconciled, shall we be saved by his life. (Romans 5:6-10 ESV)

Knowing that I was from sinful man and that I would fail Him, Christ died on the cross for my sins that I might spend eternity with Him.

When we pretend, we feed into the stereotype of being a "Christian." When pretend that we have everything together, the world looks at us and one of two things happens. 1.) They turn away because they think there is no way they could live up to the standard the church would hold them to, or 2.) They say they don't want to be a part of the church because they don't want to be a hypocorite.

We need to show the world a new church. A church that is not content wearing its mask. A church that follows through with what it teaches. A church that truly welcomes the broken-hearted. A church that is humble and admits when they make mistakes. A church of love and consequences. A church of truth.

So don't fake it. Make it.

And remember, you are redeemed.


Popular posts from this blog

Free Pattern Friday: Kassia Empire Waist Dress (2-4 years)

Happy Friday and Happy Independence Day!

It's been a while since I posted a free pattern. I finally have a day off today to share one with all of you.

If you've been on Pinterest, I'm sure you've seen the crochet top and tulle bottom dresses. I fell in love the first time I saw one. I haven't been able to find a pattern I love so I thought I'd write one and share it with all of you. I hope it's easy to read and not confusing.

Pattern is written in American terms. You can sell items made from this pattern. Please do not recreate pattern or represent as your own.

Kassia Empire Waist Dress(size 2-4 years)

Materials needed:
H (5mm) hook
Tapestry needle
75 yds x 6in tulle
Worsted Weight yarn

CH - chain
SC - single crochet
HDC - half-double crochet
DC - double crochet
TR - treble crochet
SS - slip stitch

Bodice: ch 68
row 1: dc in 4th ch from hook, dc 8 (dc 3 in next st) dc 14 (dc 3 in next st) dc 16 (dc 3 in next st) dc 14 (dc 3 in next st)dc 8, ch 2
row 2: dc 9 (…

Flower Crown Animal Hats

I don’t know about you all, but I am ready for spring. I am ready for warm weather, the Easter season, my birthday, my husband’s birthday, and our wedding anniversary. (Okay, maybe I just realized how busy we are going to be in a month or two.)
Spring fever gave me the inspiration to make the animal hats I have been wanted to make since the beginning of January. I’ve seen such cute knitted versions on Pinterest, but I hadn’t come across a crochet pattern for any of them. What do I do when I can’t find a pattern? Come up with one myself.
I hope you all enjoy making them as much as I did.

Flower Crown Animal Hats
Materials Needed: H (5.00 mm) hook G (4.00 mm) hook Tapestry needle I Love This Yarn: Gray Mist & White (for bunny hat), Toasted Almond & White (for deer hat), Burnt Pumpkin, White, and Black (for fox hat) For the flower crown I used small bits of ILTY in Sungold, Soft Blue, Pink, Buttercup, and Light Sage. I had all of these in my stash and I’m sure other worsted weight yarn i…

Cozy Delight Moss Stitch Blanket (Free Pattern)

In mid-November, I decided to make a trip to Michael’s. I knew they were having a big yarn sale, and I needed to pick up a skein of Caron Cakes to make my mom’s birthday present.
I stopped at the end of a wall of yarn to look at yarn to make William a hat for work, and when I looked to my left, I saw what I had previously tried to avoid on other trips to the store. The beautiful wall of blanket yarn.
I had William with me this trip which doesn’t happen very often. While we do most errands together, I try to avoid taking him to Michael’s or Hobby Lobby mostly because I know he doesn’t enjoy it as much as I do. On this trip, he surprised me.
I told him how much I had been wanting to get this yarn to make a blanket for myself. As much as I like crocheting blankets for other people, I had never made one for myself. This was partially due to the fact that I never wanted to take the time to do it and mostly due to loving the soft fleece blankets that always come out at Christmas time. I had …