"You seem more like yourself, than I have ever seen you."
A dear friend of mine said this to me recently. It really got me thinking. I began to ask myself why...
I have recently gone through a trying time. I've been in the fire so to speak. I've had more relatives pass away since October than I have had the 23 years previous. I've had more difficult conversations with close friends than I care to count. I gave my testimony in a church service and opened myself up to judgment. I've had several weeks where I had no idea how I was going to buy groceries.
Among other things.
Why have I been able to face all of these things over the past six months and not react the way I had before?
In my previous experiences, having months like this would have led me into depression or worse. Why was this time so different? Why am I so different?
I gave up the fight.
I don't mean that I gave up. I just gave up fighting a battle that wasn't mine to fight. I finally understood what I had been missing for so many years. The Bible tells us, The Lord will fight for us, and He actually will.
I was born fighting. I had to fight to make it into the world, and for a long time I felt like I needed to fight to stay in it. It was a survival mechanism that I developed through the circumstances that I had faced.
There will be a lot of times when we are overwhelmed by our circumstances. If you let go and be still, He will take care of everything for you. I'm not saying that we don't have to do our part. Most of the time there is work involved for us. Ultimately, God is control and He will protect us when we allow Him to do it.
Now, before I end this post, I would like to make a distinction between giving up the fight and fighting for your faith. There is war for humanity going on constantly within and around us. This is not the fight we should give up. The Apostle Paul tells us in 1 Timothy 6:11-12, "But as for you, O man of God, flee these things. Pursue righteousness, godliness, faith, love, steadfastness, gentleness. Fight the good fight of the faith. Take hold of the eternal life to which you were called and about which you made the good confession in the presence of many witnesses."
Ask yourself, "Is this a fight for the faith or fight that's already been won for me?" Cast aside the worry, doubt, and anxiety. Christ did not die so that we would live in constant misery. He died so that we could live in victory.